Thursday, June 29, 2006

Six Months

It has been six months since we lost our precious Cami. What a bittersweet day. Today we found out our new baby is a boy. Everything looks good so far. He is a little small, so I am to start drinking protein shakes. I'm also supposed to increase my blood pressure medication and folic acid. Here's our new little guy.

Friday, June 23, 2006

Needles

My belly is completely covered with bruises from the Lovenox injections. I thought maybe it was because I have been using ice before I inject. This morning I attempted without the ice. Unfortunately, I let my 5 year old daughter watch. I had barely pricked my skin when I realized there was just no way. It is too painful. I got an ice pack and tried again. Not cold enough. My daughter kept saying, "You just have to do it, Mommy! For the baby!" I finally put the ice pack on for a long time, like I usually do, and got the needle in. I have a knot the size of a half dollar on one side of my belly. I wonder if there's anything I can do to stop the bruising.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

A New Diagnosis

I have a new diagnosis. Test results show I have antiphospholipid antibody syndrome, sometimes known as Hughes syndrome. There is not a lot of research on the condition, even though it is very common. The maternal fetal medicine specialist says that we have our answer to the death of our baby. In some ways it is a relief, however, it is very difficult to deal with the fact that my body killed my baby. Also, it was an easy test to perform and maybe should have been conducted when I first started having contractions a few months before we lost the baby.
I know nothing can bring her back, and I need to focus on the future and not dwell on the loss. I now have to give my self Lovenox (Heparin) injections in my belly every morning. I am also on blood pressure medication, baby aspirin, prenatal vitamins, folic acid and extra calcium. I am supposed to limit my sodium intake to less than 1500 mg per day.
Treatment seems to provide positive outcomes for pregnancy, so I can only do what the doctors say and hope for the best. We will have our next ultrasound on June 29th. Hopefully all is well and the baby is growing as it should.