Friday, July 14, 2006

Glass Half Empty

I think when most pregnant women reach the 20 week mark they heave a sigh of relief. At this point you should be pretty secure in not having a loss. I don't feel that way because i know otherwise. I think I wasn't really stressed about this pregnancy before because up until now, if I experienced a loss it would be a miscarriage. That can't possibly be as bad as losing a baby near term, right? Now I've passed the miscarriage mark and if I lost the baby it would be another stillbirth. Now the fear is starting to creep in. I can feel the baby kick a lot, but not all the time. There was no indication the baby had died last time, so if it happened again, I probably wouldn't know. I will have to figure out a way to deal with my fears now or I will go nuts.