Sunday, August 27, 2006


I have no desire to do a gift registry for this baby. Is that wrong? I feel guilty people bought gifts for our last baby, who did not survive. I don't feel comfortable expecting gifts again. So far no one has asked me to do one, and that is good. I don't know how I would explain the reason for not wanting to register. We have most of the things we need. We still need a crib, bouncer, bath and a few other things, but nothing is an urgent necessity. A good friend gave us an entire wardrobe of adorable clothes and my sister in law loaned me more. We could always use more diapers, but I don't think that's something people need to register for.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Our Hearts' Desire

Monday, August 07, 2006

The Question

I've now received the "dreaded question" twice. I have been so afraid to hear, "Is this your first?" I have been rehearsing potential answers and finally I was asked twice in one week. Both times I responded, "No." I can't believe it was that simple. I'm so glad they didn't probe for more, and I'm so glad I didn't have to hear any pregnancy stories.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

My Year of Selfishness

I have decided this is my year of selfishness. I know I have friends and family who could use my support, but I just do not have the strength to support anyone else emotionally right now. I'm taking the time for me. I am doing the best I can for myself and the baby. If I forget a birthday, or don't send a sympathy card, I hope I will be forgiven.